I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I'M DOING

Hello🌝 I’m Laura and I have no clue what I’m doing🙋🏻‍♀️

I’m happily navigating the world of freelancing, with all it’s highs and lows… and honestly, I’m winging it from one day to the next, following ‘my nose’ and those little signs and synchronicities. Anyone relate?

Saying yes to opportunities that feel aligned & no to those that don’t, trying my best to not let fear decide for me, to put myself outside my comfort zone, allow myself to grow into who I’m here to be… or rather, release myself of the conditioning & patterns that don’t belong to me.

I go through phases of feeling so in flow, as though I can do anything I put my mind to, other times feeling an imposter, overwhelmed with everything I need to do to move forward & make ends meet. I guess that’s the cyclical nature of life.

I’m driven by a deep desire to help others, especially with things I’ve experienced. Most of my teenage & adult life I suffered with acne & I now help others heal their skin. Over the last few years I’ve begun to understand I’ve also dealt with anxiety throughout my life (without realising, it’s shown up in many ways) & now I teach yoga & breathwork to bring others moments of peace & presence (I’ve always been terrified of public speaking 🤷🏻‍♀️). I’m building up the courage to share EFT with others, as I know I can help so many people with this magical tool, yet fear seems to still be holding me back on this one. I draw & paint; mostly life like portraits and I occasionally work on commissions. I move & dance; sometimes you may catch me in an advert or in the background of a TV show. I also run a little AirBnb, creating a cosy space for others visiting my home town.

I don’t do one, straight forward, well-defined thing, or squeeze into a neat little box.. I don’t fit into the mould society has made & I’m slowly realising this is my power, not something to shy away from.

I’ve always struggled with the question of ‘what do I want to do with my life’, always in search of deeper meaning, trying to find my calling. Realising now this was partly anxiety, the fear of doing life wrong somehow, not being good enough, not finding the 'perfect' life, letting myself down. Realising now the joy is in the journey of finding out and I'm grateful for all the possibility.

What I do know is, the more I can help myself to find peace, the more I work to exist in my authenticity and become the best version of myself, the more everything will fall into place. I know I'm on the right path and that's the only clue I need.